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Learning to Lose Love (When people you love are disloyal)


Learning to Lose Love

LoyaltyThe Loyalty Firm 2Never let anyone diminish youLearning to Lose Love

To delve through this heap of trash piled high before my eyes

From the cold dark black reaper who brought down our blameless lives

How could I have borne his children? Played the virulent role of wife?

Those I loved and raised through sunshine and tears

Carried in my body nine months; love endlessly through years

Tried to mull through all the mire; should have left once more than many times

But you love(d) him so it seemed no matter what or why

You have no conception of the countless nights I cried… and died

Survival often times dictates that we create our own reality

And you live yours as I do mine… and for me it’s desolate right now

Since my very soul, it bleeds.

For I am a person of flesh, blood and bones, no validation needed, I am me and me I own.

But words defy how icy cold I feel to be me standing endlessly alone.

And I don’t have to agree with your philosophies, principles or how you live your life

I discern you are you and though I feel it is unequivocally fundamental to have been loyal and true

I will never beg for the same gifts of trust, respect and loyalty from a superfluous you.

I won’t ask those things of anyone but I know what’s right for me

And degradation and betrayal choke my life-blood, currently to an insurmountable degree.

And it will do the same to you because, as you will someday see

Perhaps long after I’ve departed from your life, maybe for eternity

You have blamed, berated, and slandered me for every adversity in your life

I’ve allowed you to smash me down to nobody and worship the “powers” that you perceive to “be”.

And for those insolent trivial persons you bashed in my skull and left me here to bleed

Only when karma comes around to you will you wake up and see the deed

And it’s all so dirty, not so pretty, so I’ll remove myself and hold my peaceful solid ground

And I’ll stand for what I believe; and care not a scrap for the (crap) that they fling around.

Because words cut deep for a little while and indifference prickles my heart

But disloyalty can never be quite ever squared for it breaks the foundation of unconditional love

Without which we all crumble around into the sacred ground that used to house our hearts.

Sharon Lynn Van Meter

Copyright May 22, 2013


What I Have Learned of Life

What I Have Learned of Life.


Rain In My Mind

Seems my brain collides

With everybody’s rain

And it pours

                        And it pours

                                                   God it pours

How can I soak up the excess?

Clean out the chaos?

                            I’m in a nightmare

                                                      Wake up

                                                                 Wake up

My life is written everywhere

                                                     In bits and pieces 

                                                                          Of the sky

                                                                                           I live

                                                                                                    I die

I give my best 

But it’s never good

                                     Good

                                             Good

                                                      Enough

The walls are tight

They punch me

                                      In

                                              The

                                                          Chest

Knock out my breath

 I want out of this mess

                                   Out to live

                                                      Live

                                                              Live

                                                                     My life 

You screwed me

Incessantly

                     And he did

                                        And he did

                                                              And he did

 

My thoughts come crashing

                                                Crashing

                                                          Crashing 

                                                                       From

                                                                                 The

                                                                                         Sky

I’m killing you 

Out of my mind

                                   Out

                                               Of

                                                        My

                                                                 Mind

My brain collides with everybody’s rain

And nobody sees my pain

                                                         In

                                                                   The

                                                                           Rain

                                                                                        In

                                                                                               My

                                                                                                      Mind

 

 

Sharon Lynn Van Meter

Copyright 2012

 

 

 


spoon-feed me whispers

spoon-feed me whispers.


Deception

Deception.


spoon-feed me whispers

spoon-feed me whispers.


The Notebook

Cover of "The Notebook (New Line Platinum...

Cover of The Notebook (New Line Platinum Series)

i just had to upload this.

this is not mine

created by aquahallixs

excerpts from movie The Notebook

starring  Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams 

with music by Rascal Flatts


Mask of the Abuser

Masked.

Mask

Mask (Photo credit: Rodfather)

English: A heavy-duty "bow rake" use...

Mask of the Abuser

Mask of the Abuser

Mask of the Abuser

 

The fear is all inclusive

As memories tear into my soul

And sleep seems so elusive

How can you still

maintain

control?

 

I was repulsed by you in every way

So I just go on remembering

How your loathsome fingers

Made

My skin crawl

and bruise

and

break

 

And my blood runs exhilaratingly cold

As I finally rise to the occasion

For you no longer can hold

My disgust at arm’s length

With you r

 obsolete persuasion

Than you can

Approach Me

within three hundred

and fifty

 feet

 

Either way you are a loser

But what more could be expected

From behind the mask

of the abuser?

I have studied revenge,

But it no longer

tastes so sweet

For my salvation

is in forgiving

Even as

my throat

burns

with your

deceit

 

But as you crawl amongst the living

I won’t forget until you are beat

With a garden rake into the ground

And your evil scales

laid low

Only then

will these memories

retreat

And slither

into

your deep

black

hole

 

On that magnificent occasion

When your frozen mask bursts into flames

And your wicked power melts into ashes

And swallows up my grievous shame

 

When your naked truth is blatant

For all who care to see

The devil

in all

his

glory

Who stole

my soul

from

me

Only then

Will

my heart

rejoice

Only then

will

my soul

be

free

 

 

Sharon Lynn Van Meter

Copyright 2002